Tuesday, March 22, 2022

Brakes & Rotors

     A while back my car needed brakes.  My husband replaced the front pads.  All was well for a while.  Then it started bouncing a little when I would stop.  I told him and he said it probably needed the rotors turned.  Ok.  Time passed; the bouncing got worse.  I mentioned it again; probably need to take it to a shop and have it fixed.  Ok.  More time passed; bouncing continued to get worse.  I “mentioned it” again.  

“All the places I called are backed up.  I really need to get these brakes fixed.  It’s starting to sound like it’s falling apart.”

“Well it’s because you’re riding your brakes.”

    Now, I don’t know enough about how brakes work to know if that’s totally accurate or not.  But it kinda irked me a little bit.  

“I do not ‘ride my brakes.’  It’s just from all the stopping at red lights and stop signs in town.  And all the people in front of me who like to stop just all of a sudden without any brake lights or blinkers or any warning at all.  It is not my fault.”

    The next week, last Friday, my pastor made a comment that I have not been able to forget.  In his preaching, he was telling stories of a couple of fatal car accidents.  He said, 

“They had it all under control...until they didn’t.”

It absolutely took my breath away.  And every time he repeated it, I lost my breath again.  

“They had it all under control...until they didn’t.”

To me it was the most random statement, at the most random time.  It didn’t seem to fit with anything else that happened during that service.  But maybe it did.  Maybe my mind was just on the dozen other things I had going on that day.  How many times have I tried to do it all, get it all done, keep it all running smooth...riding my brakes to keep it all under control.

“They had it all under control...until they didn’t.”

What made it worse, these people had passengers in their vehicles at the time of their wreck.  Some made it; some were injured; some didn’t survive.  

    I have never had the wind knocked out of me like that before, and I’m still not over it.  I think I was already in the same shape my car was.  I had let things go so long, I felt like I was about to fall apart.  I needed repair before I took out me and whoever was just along for the ride.  I need to learn new driving habits, and stop riding my brakes.

Tuesday, March 15, 2022

Blessed by the Effort

 Have you ever watched somebody do something and thought, “Wow!  Look at them!  It’s great they’re trying that!  That is such a blessing!”  And in the same breath think, “It would be perfect if ________,” and fill in the blank with half a dozen things you think would make it better?  No?  Just me?  Hmm.  Ok then, moving on.

I got home from church last night (first night of revival), and my son had cooked supper and saved me a plate.  Bless his heart!  (And I mean that in a nice way.)  Was it perfect?  Nope.  Was I blessed by it?  You better believe it!  But, it would have been perfect if ___________.

After eating my 9:30 p.m. reheated supper, while everybody else had already gone to bed, I decided I’d go ahead and clean up the kitchen.  I didn’t want to.  I wanted to go to bed too.  But I knew if I left the mess I would have to look at it and smell it this morning.  Nobody wants that.  So I loaded the dishwasher, handwashed the iron skillet; but when it came down to that last pot that held the scraps, I had the real internal struggle.  Do I go out in the cold wind to rake these out, or do I leave it for tomorrow?  Everything else is done; I hate to run the dishwasher without all the dishes in there; isn’t that wasting water and detergent?  I snapped the dishwasher closed, hit the start button, and walked away.  I rewarded myself with a Little Debbie while I folded a load of towels.

I was so proud to walk into a clean kitchen to make my coffee this morning.  Until....


I got to the stove and saw the pot I had left last night.  It would have been perfect if ________.  That’s when God spoke to me, reminding me of my blessings from yesterday.  (I can just see Him standing there, rolling his eyes, one hand on His hip, the other extended to reveal the scenes.)  

“You’re not blessed by the perfect.  You’re blessed by the effort.” 

Y’all!  God doesn’t want our perfect.  He wants our effort.  Our willingness to do the simple and the hard that He asks us to do.  Not with our own abilities, but with His.  To maybe step outside our comfort zone and try, without worrying about being perfect or what the outcome will be.  Give what we've got and He'll take care of the rest.  

Y’all probably don’t see all that in my pot of leftover mac & cheese, but God gets my attention in weird ways.  Because I’m not perfect.  (Could it have been better if I had taken the scraps out last night?  Possibly.  But we won’t chase that rabbit right now.  Let’s just work with what we’ve got.)

So, is this writing perfect?  Absolutely not.  But I’m running it.  One pot short of a full load.  And I’ve already been blessed by the effort.

Tuesday, February 15, 2022

Amaryllis

It’s been a while since I tried my hand at this writing thing, but God showed me something this morning and I feel the need to share it. 

A friend gave me an Amaryllis several months ago. To be honest, I’m not really into flowers and have a hard time keeping them alive. I don’t have enough know-how to pick out the flowers/seeds, a pot, the right kind of soil, fertilizer, etc. It’s just not my thing. Thus, it took me a while to actually look at it closely and open the box. This was a “kit.” It came with everything I would need - a pot (with a saucer), soil, a bulb, and some very detailed instructions.

God is that way. We don’t have to have all the knowledge. He has everything we need, including detailed instructions. We just have to make the effort to open the box.

In reading the instructions, several things stood out to me - 

“...place the bulb with roots down...” (Sounds like a no-brainer, but it obviously needs to be said)

“...add...growing medium around the bulb to secure. Ensure 1/3 of the bulb remains...above the surface...” (Don’t smother it)

“Keep moist...not wet. Increase watering frequency after flower stalks and leaves appear...do not over water...” (Water is good and necessary for growth; but let’s not increase the load before it’s time)

“If the bulb has started growing, plant as soon as possible and the bulb will straighten itself out.” (It’s never too late)

“All plants grow towards light. Turning the pot regularly will ensure straight stems.” (Jesus is the light; we need to expose all our sides to Him)

 When my plant started to grow (I guess “stalk” may be the proper term), it just grew taller and taller. And taller. I asked my friend if this was normal; should it have bloomed yet? Hers had not grown tall and was starting to bloom. It was a full week later before I had a flower to show (and it was a different color than hers.) By that time, it was so tall that the bloom was hidden behind the curtain. I could only see it from certain angles, while washing dishes or outside. I couldn’t see it just walking into the kitchen; I had to pull the curtain back. 

We don’t all grow at the same rate, or to the same height. We all bloom at different times. And our blooms are not all the same color. Not all blooms are visible to everybody; some can only be seen by pulling back the curtain. Those blooms are beauty for only God Himself to see. 

My plant ended up with three blooms on it. They stayed bright and beautiful for about three weeks. Once they had withered, per the instructions, I cut the stalk and left the leaves. I continue to water it. There are three leaves still in the pot, sitting on my kitchen window sill, between my dish detergent and scrub brush, in the sunshine, overlooking my dirty dishes. Later this year, we will start the process all over again.

I have the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost living in me, cleaning away and lightening all the weariness of everyday life. My blooms may be for God's eyes only.  Even if the world can’t see it, I’ll be right where He can see me.

Saturday, March 20, 2021

Balancing Act

 I'll just say it.  I'm not a professional juggler.  Shocking I know.  I was totally surprised the first time I heard it, too. Then God explained it to me.

Church, work, home, marriage, kids, family, health, finances, friends, social media, etc., etc., etc. Those are all (or at least most) of the things I have constantly going on in my life and my head all the time.  You may have more!  School, young children, legal issues, major illness.  Trying to maintain equality is tough. It's near impossible to keep them all going perfectly at the same time. I only have two hands. I can only physically hold two at a time. Which two do I choose? It varies from day to day. 

That's juggling. There are always some things up in the air. And there will always be some things crashing to the floor into a thousand pieces. Oh sure, I can hook each one on a finger, as most women can. But they will just dangle there. I don't have a firm grasp on any of them.


But - and here's where my light bulb went off - instead of having everything in a different hand, try stacking them. Put the biggest, heaviest, toughest, most important piece on the bottom - Faith. Hold on to it with both hands. Then, if you stack the right pieces (the ones God gives you) in the right order (the way God tells you to), nothing will be dangling or flying through the air or falling and breaking. That's balance.




Friday, April 27, 2018

April 27, 2011 - Relived

Stacie

They had told us for weeks that storms were coming. That these would be storms like we had never seen. That we should prepare for the worst. Ok, sure. We’d had storms before, they came pretty close, but we had always been spared with nothing more than a few leaves and limbs blown down. Surely this wouldn’t be any different.

The day started as expected. Some rain and thunder and lightning and high winds. Schools were delayed due to the early morning storms. With the “threat” of more storms that afternoon, I decided to keep the kids at home, but I got up and went to work anyway. Once I left the quietness of my home, I quickly realized that we had once again been spared while others close by had been severely affected. When I got to work, the power was out. We took care of a few things that we could, but left soon after, since there’s only so much you can do in an office without a computer or a telephone.

So I went home. The radio was still telling that storms were on the way. It was hard to take seriously at that point. I mean, we still had power at home, the sun was shining. I heard storms had hit Flat Rock, where my mom lives. I tried to call, but got no answer. She finally called me back that afternoon.
“Did you call?
“Yes, are you ok?
“I’m fine. I’m at work. Why?”
“Uh, storms hit Flat Rock this morning. Just making sure your house is still standing.”
“Oh. I haven’t heard anything. I’m sure if something was wrong the neighbor would have called and told me.”
That’s Mama. She was less concerned with storms than I was. Anytime one came up, we’d just take a nap. She did call and confirm that her house was fine.

But it wasn’t long till the sky clouded back up. There were news reports that storms with tornadoes were hitting cities on the other side of the state. Thinking it would be several hours before anything would be near us, we continued our day, occasionally checking to see where the next tornado warning was. Wednesday night church service was cancelled.

About 6:00 p.m. the power went out. Apparently a tornado had hit the TVA power station in Huntsville and knocked out power to all of North Alabama. Eh, ok. They’ll have it back on by morning. We’ll just light some candles, play cards or something, and maybe go to bed early.

I can’t remember if my sister called or sent me a text message telling me a tornado was in Albertville and heading our way. She asked where we were. I checked on my daughter, who was living in Albertville at the time. She was fine she said. I remember my sister telling me I needed to get my son home, since he was next door at my in-law’s house. I got no answer on their phone, so I decided to drive over and get him, just to make my sister feel better I guess. While I was in the car, it dawned on me that I could actually still get the news from the radio in the car. Duh! So we sat out in the yard and listened to the radio...and watched the big black cloud go up Highway 75, a few miles from our house. Whew, it missed us. I text my sister and told her we were all ok.

•     •     •     •     •

Melissa

I’m pretty sure my cable was out by then, so I was on the computer checking radar and weather. Not sure if I was on a particular TV station website or not so don’t know if I was seeing anything about damage. Also don’t remember seeing anything about a tornado heading my way. I was more concerned with the storm going through DeKalb and Jackson county at the time.

At some point while on the computer, it started thundering and lightning pretty good, so I decided I probably needed to get off the computer. I must have known something was up because I decided to sit in the hallway and listen to the radio. The weather guy was on giving an account of what was going on. Continuous coverage like on TV. I don’t remember what he said. A few minutes into it, the power went out. That’s when I decided to get in the hall closet (for some reason I had cleaned out the bottom of it earlier in the day thinking I might need to hide there later). I wrapped my frog blanket around me and put a pillow on my head. I don’t remember a noise but I’m sure it was there. A minute or two later, I felt the house move a couple of inches. Then it moved a couple of feet. Then the closet wall blew open and I saw what looked like blue sky and those birds kids draw in pictures. Of course, it wasn’t. I’m guessing it was funnel cloud and debris. I got sucked out. The blanket and pillow blew away along with my glasses. I was in the air and then I hit the ground. My hair covered my face. Stuff was hitting me. I was bounce-rolling along who knows what. I thought, “Oh my goodness! I’m outside in a tornado!” I remember hitting the ground or whatever once and hitting my head really hard. I thought, “One more hit like that and I’m gone. Either knocked out or dead.”

I’m sure all of this lasted less than a minute, but it felt like a lot longer. Once I stopped rolling, I think I was on my stomach laying on something. Debris was pelting me. I realized I wasn’t flat on the ground, so I raised up (hands on ground, butt in air). I felt stuff hitting my calves. It felt like needles and hurt bad. But I knew I had to get on the ground so it was just going to have to hurt. I got on the ground, laid flat on my stomach, and covered my head with my arms. More stuff hit me. I guess whatever the funnel cloud was dropping. Then I felt rain and hail (at least golf ball size). I remember it hitting my back and legs. I was somewhere at the back of what was my house.

Once the hail and wind stopped (don’t really remember if the rain did), I sat up. That’s when I realized I didn’t have my glasses. I don’t remember if I tried looking around then or not. I decided I needed to go find someone and stay with them because there was debris everywhere and I couldn’t really see where I was going. I think that’s when I realized that I wasn’t wearing any shoes either. I got up and started walking toward the house that was supposed to be behind mine. It wasn’t. I only got a few feet. My head was spinning and my legs really hurt. I was walking with them bent because it hurt too much to straighten them. I sat down on the ground and that’s when I remember really trying to look around. It was about 8:30 so there wasn’t much light. I looked back toward my house and saw a pile of rubble. I looked toward my neighbors’ houses. Rubble.

It was really still and quiet. Then there was an agonizing scream from the hill across the street. That shattered the quietness. As I sat on the ground, I hollered a few times for help to see if anyone was around. Lots of people were crying for help.

After sitting there for 5-10 minutes, I started worrying that the tornado might come back. Silly, I know, but at the time I was scared. I got up and started hobbling toward the drainage ditch by the road. That’s when I heard voices. I hollered at them and three people came over (only one of them spoke English). One of them was Denine. She was so nice to me. She let me stay with her for a while and helped me stay calm. She also let me use her phone to call Mama. Mama didn’t answer. I don’t remember if I was able to leave a message or not. I honestly don’t remember if I was able to even get a call through.

I stayed with Denine and the other two people for a while. Denine’s family joined us in the road where I sat and listened to what was going on around me. Denine’s house had been levelled, but fortunately her and her family were in the basement and weren’t hurt too bad.

People started walking around checking on neighbors and looking for family members. One man came by and said that some of the neighbors had gathered at his Aunt Melba’s house across the street from mine. A tree had landed on one side of her house but the rest was still pretty much standing. I’m sure it was messed up but I couldn’t see it.

As I walked up to her house, Melba came out to meet me. Even in that scary situation, she was still friendly to me. I asked, “Do you have some shoes I can wear?” She did and went and got them for me. I felt better about walking around then.

I went into her kitchen where some of her relatives were gathered. A woman and two children, I think. The woman had a broken hand or arm from trying to protect the children. The children didn’t seem to be hurt. Maybe some scratches and bruises. I think I talked to them a little but don’t remember what we talked about. They lived next door to Melba. They had taken shelter in their bathroom. That was the only room left standing after the tornado went through.

I sat in Melba’s kitchen for a little while until another neighbor came in and asked Melba if she could use her car to take some people to the hospital. I knew I wasn’t as hurt as others were, and maybe I shouldn’t have, but I asked if I could go with her. She said I could. I really just wanted to get somewhere safe so I could sit down or lay down and rest.

The back window was busted out of the car so I helped clear the glass off the back seat. I honestly don’t know how I managed to stand on my legs or move around in the back of that car. Adrenaline and God, I guess.

I sat in the middle in the back. Norma sat on my right and Lorraine sat on my left. Norma’s arm was broken or something, and I think Lorraine had internal injuries and was definitely in shock. Lorraine’s daughter, Veronica, sat up front. Two men had to put her in the car. Her leg was really messed up. She was also pregnant and was afraid she had lost the baby (she did later). I remember Veronica telling her mother that she didn’t think her daddy had made it. That got me. I felt so bad for them. She told Lorraine about the children that were in the house with them but I don’t remember what she said. I think one of them had a broken bone or two.

We only got a few feet up the road before rescue workers stopped us. Trees were down everywhere and covering the road. Power lines covered the road, too. Thunder sounded and it started raining as Norma and I were helped to a police car by two very nice policemen. I think they were policemen anyway. Maybe they were firemen and were helping us to a fire chief’s car. I don’t know. It was dark and I wasn’t wearing glasses. They put us in the back of the car and drove us to Apison Elementary where a triage center was set up.

When we arrived at the elementary school, I got checked out and it was determined that my injuries were considered minor. They didn’t feel like it to me, but in comparison to others I guess they probably were. While I was laying there being checked and waiting, I was joking a little with the workers around me. I tend to do that when in a difficult situation. Plus I’m sure I was in shock. Before I left, Denine came by to check on me.

I was loaded into the ambulance with Lorraine and taken to Erlanger. I was strapped down on a narrow gurney or something at the side of the back of the ambulance. That was a ride, let me tell you.

Once at the hospital, I don’t remember what happened at first, but I eventually sat down with someone and went through all that stuff you have to tell when you go to the ER. That was lots of fun while I was sick to my stomach, dizzy, hurting, and trying not to throw up. I was then taken into a room and waited to be checked by a doctor.

The doctor came in and we talked about what had happened.

I said, “My ears are ringing and I’m having trouble hearing. Like something is in them.”

He said, “It’s probably dirt so let’s wash them out.”

After he did that, he said, “Let’s try to clean you up a bit.” Then he tried cleaning my forehead. I think he gave up when he realized more of it was scratches and scabs than dirt.

The doctor said other people would come in and do x-rays of my legs, I’d go for a CT scan or something, get stitched up and then I could go home.

I told him, “I don’t have a home to go to.” I think that got him. He really didn’t know what to say after that.

As I lay in the room, the door was open so I could “see” and hear what was going on around the nurses’ desk (I guess that’s what it was). Some paramedics were standing by my door talking about bringing people in from DeKalb and Jackson county.

I asked, “Is it real bad in Jackson and DeKalb?”

They were kind of quiet, and then one of them replied softly, “It’s pretty bad.”

I started crying thinking about Mama, and Stacie and her bunch, Wendy and her bunch. I had no way of knowing if they had been hit or not and if they were okay. I cried for a while and eventually fell asleep. I don’t remember if that was before or after a shot. At some point my legs were x-rayed and I had a CT scan. Other nurses and such came in and talked to me and checked on me a couple of times.
At about 4:00 in the morning, a worker came in and asked if I wanted to call someone. I tried Mama. No answer. I tried what I thought was Stacie’s number but it wasn’t. I couldn’t remember anybody’s phone number. I asked the lady for a phone book hoping I could call one of my school friends. All she could find was a Chattanooga phone book. No Georgia numbers. I remembered that my friend Annette lived in Chattanooga and still had a house phone, so we found her number and I called her. At 4:00 in the morning. The conversation went something like this:
Annette: “Hello.”
Me: “Annette, this is Melissa Camp. Sorry to bother you. The tornado hit my house and I’m at the hospital. When they release me, can you come get me? I can’t reach Mama or my sister.”
Annette: “Yes, I’ll come get you. Call me when they are ready to release you.”
I know more than that was said, but I really don’t remember. It was 4:00 in the morning and I had just woke her up. It wasn’t a really long conversation, but she was concerned about me.

Later in the morning, the lady came back and asked if I wanted to try calling my mom or sister again. Mama still didn’t answer. I tried Stacie again, but changed one number. 996 instead of 997. Got her!!!

•     •     •     •     •

Stacie

The next morning was Thursday. We still had no power. Great, cold shower, no coffee. I did a few things around the house, and drove to the office where I work in Albertville to see how things were there. The storm had missed our building, but there was damage all around. There was no music on the radio. Only stories of the devastation that had hit. My cousin in Georgia began sending me text messages asking if I had heard from my sister. 
“Well, I talked to her last night. She was fine. Why?”
She told me a tornado had hit Ringold, Georgia, and that it was bad. 
“Well I’m sure she’s ok or she would have called.”
She asked what road my sister lived on. 
“Cherokee Ridge, Cherokee Valley, Cherokee-something road.” 
Looking back now, I think it’s sad that I didn’t even know what street my sister lived on.
“OMG I think that’s where the tornado hit. I’ll check and let you know.”
I tried texting and calling my sister. No answer. I tried calling my mom. No answer. I figured their home phones were out because of having no electricity, and their cell phones were dead because they couldn’t be charged. My cell phone battery was getting low too. 

So now my heart was racing. As I sat in my daughter’s living room, my phone rang. I didn’t recognize the number, but I did recognize the area code. It was the same 423 area code as my sister’s number. I held my breath and answered the phone. It was her. 
“Is this Stacie?”
“Yes, are you ok?”
“Is this Stacie Cisco?”
“YES, ARE YOU OK?”
“Oh thank God!”
She was crying.
“Brandy has been asking about you. Are you ok?”
“I can’t believe I remembered your number! Oh thank God!”
“WHERE ARE YOU?! ARE YOU OK?!”
I hear her trying to calm down.
“I’m ok. I’m at the hospital. Everything’s gone.”
I almost dropped the phone.
“Do I need to come get you?”
She cries more.
“Yes, please come get me!”
She’s breaking my heart. I’m shaking, trying to motion for my daughter to get ready and let’s go without panicking.
“Which hospital? I’ll go get Mama and we’ll come get you.”
•     •     •     •     •

Melissa

I don’t think I will ever forget her phone number again! Now I stress to my students the importance of knowing at least 2 people’s phone number in case they need to call but don’t have their phone with them with the number stored.

Around 9:00 or 10:00, a nurse took me to a different room so I could be stitched up. A doctor came in and cleaned and stitched my leg and pinky finger. Those numbing shots hurt worse than the actual stitches!

I called Annette and let her know they were ready to release me. I tried standing up to get in the wheel chair (or go to the bathroom, don’t remember), and couldn’t put all my weight on my legs. Not even bent like I had right after the tornado. I guess laying around for a few hours made them stiffer or something. Anyway, I finally got in the wheel chair and was pushed out to the waiting room. While Annette pulled the car around to the door, a nurse or someone pushed me out to the sidewalk and left me there to wait on her. I knew they were really busy with new people coming in, so I tried not to be irritated. Annette and I had a time trying to get me in the car with me not being able to put much weight on my legs. I’m sure it was a sight for people passing by.

We started off toward the drug store to get my meds and I told her what had happened. While we were driving, a friend of ours called her. Annette told her that she had picked me up at the hospital and was taking me to her house to wait on my mom and sister to come get me. It turns out a lot of people had been trying to find me. I would realize just how many when I got a new phone and heard all the messages. I am loved.

•     •     •     •     •

Stacie

I don’t remember exactly how the next couple of hours played out, but... My sister arranged for a friend to pick her up from the hospital and we were to pick her up at the friend’s house. She would have the friend call me when they got there and give me directions. The hospital was chaos and they were only letting in certain people. I had to go get Mama and tell her. But at this point I wasn’t sure if I could even get through to Flat Rock. I called a cousin, who told me he had been out clearing roads that morning and we should be fine to get through. We took the interstate, since the smaller roads had been declared impassible. I was not prepared for what I saw when we came back across the mountain. Trees, homes, vehicles - people’s lives - were turned upside down. Destroyed. All I could do was cry and pray. And cry and pray some more.

At Mama’s, though, she was calmly going about her day. I’m not sure she knew what lay outside her door, just down the hill from her house. What I had to tell her would shatter her peace.
“Have you talked to Lissa?”
“No, my phone’s dead. Why?”
“She’s at the hospital...
Gasp.
“...She’s ok. But we need to go get her.”
It’s a good thing she was standing beside a chair, or I’m sure she would have hit the floor. She cried for the longest. My aunt called me then. I had to tell her the news too. She cried when she heard Mama crying. I was shaking, thinking “This can’t be real. But she said she’s ok. We just have to go get her.”

Once everything was calmed down and everybody collected themselves, there was nothing to do but wait for my sister to call and let us know where she was. We weren’t doing good at sitting still, so we decided to go ahead and start driving that way. Thankfully we didn’t have to wait long. She called before we got out of the driveway. Her friend gave me directions, and we were on our way - to what we did not know.

When we got to Annette’s house, she took us to the spare bedroom/office where my sister was resting. We didn’t know what to expect, and Annette told us to be prepared. I don’t think you can prepare for something like that. I remember she seemed very calm (it was probably the meds). She couldn’t see us very well because she didn’t have her glasses, but she knew who we all were (me, Mama, my son and daughter). She was laying in bed, covered with a blanket I believe. She was wearing a tyvek jumpsuit. Her hair was a mess, tangled and matted with dirt and blood. She had a big scab across her forehead. She had a bandage and splint on her hand. We could see other scrapes and bruises and dirty spots on her arms and face.

Mama asked her if she wanted to tell us what happened, and she told us. I was amazed she could remember such vivid detail. She was conscious through the whole thing. She told me later she remembered praying while she was in the tornado, asking God to let her pass out before she died; that she didn’t want to be “awake” when she died.

As we got ready to leave, my sister needed to go to the bathroom, but she couldn’t walk. Mama left the room. My daughter and I helped my sister into an office-type chair with wheels and wheeled her to the bathroom. As we helped her out of the jumpsuit, I got a lump in my throat. There was not a place on her body that was not covered in dirt, blood, scabs, scratches, “road rash,” or bruised. I honestly don’t know how her kidneys were functioning as bruised as her back was. I have never seen anything like it.

•     •     •     •     •

The next several days were kind of a blur. We don't remember a lot of specific details.  My sister was pretty medicated and in a good deal of pain.  Mama, I believe, was running on adrenaline, just doing whatever she had to do to take care of her.  And I had to return to my house and family and work.

My sister’s best friend from high school (who we later learned had just spent several hours working recovery - not rescue - with a local Rescue Squad) came and helped her get a shower and somewhat cleaned up. Wendy was a huge life-saver that day! More friends and family came. We tried to shield her from the news stories of the devastation and loss of life. We managed to get her some clothes; we bandaged cuts and scrapes. She was able to move around, at first in a wheelchair, then with a walker, and finally on her own. We made trips to Ringold to try to find anything left of her belongings. I will never forget the look on the rescue worker’s face when we went back the first time. They would not let anyone through without proof they were from the area. My sister simply opened the sliding door of the van, he took one look at her, and we passed without any problems.

The weeks and months passed, and life went on. The outpouring of love and support over the summer was amazing. The miracles we witnessed were inspiring. My sister stayed at Mama’s, and eventually bought her first new house and a new car, and returned to work as a school teacher in August. She had continued to receive medical treatment for her injuries, and eventually had to undergo surgery to remove a piece of wood embedded in her leg. The chiropractor tried, but admitted he wasn’t sure how to treat someone whose body had been through a tornado. Some scars are still visible. Some are not.

It has now been almost seven years since the tornadoes of April 27, 2011. We started writing this story about three years ago, mostly as a way to let go of some of the emotions we experienced every year, or every time a storm came through. Since then we have tried to add an ending to it, but just could never find the right words. We asked Mama if she had anything she wanted to add, some way to wrap this up. She jokingly said, “The End.” (Now you know where we get our mad writing skills.) Then on a more serious note she added, “There’s no way to end the story, because the story’s not finished yet.”

Those words are oh so true. We are not the same women we were “pre-tornado.” Others around our area have similar stories; some have stories much worse. But this is our story. This is how God chose to show Himself to us in our lives. And He became a very real, close, personal friend.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Thanksgiving

It’s the Sunday after Thanksgiving. I hope you all have had a wonderfully blessed holiday weekend. Whatever your traditions or plans, I hope God was the center of your thankfulness. I thought he was in mine, until this morning. I realized that even though he sent me a gift of calm amid the chaos, He was not my main focus. Oh me, yet again. And while praying for forgiveness, He began to show me things, messages in my reflections over the past few days. I will share a few of them here with you:

✞ You may not know everyone at your table, but invite them in, feed them, and make them feel welcome.

✞ If you’re in too big of a hurry trying to get into the ham (the good stuff), you can cut yourself on the tin foil.

✞ Some of the best dishes come in disposable pans; some come in practical Tupperware; and some come in fancy bowls.

✞ No matter how raw and cut up your hands are from constant washing, the dishes still have to be done.

✞ In the course of living, there will always be messes to clean up.

✞ Just when you think you’ve got everything cleaned up, you spot a Dr. Pepper can in some random place and think, “How did that get there?” “How long has it been there?” And “How did I not see it before?”

✞ All the deals everybody rushed to be the first in line to get Thursday evening, they were still there when I leisurely strolled into the store Friday morning, and from the comfort of my couch Friday afternoon, and even Saturday evening after everything was all over. (God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow.)

✞ (Don’t give up) Even the dog had good scraps this weekend.

✞ The best way to unclog the toilet isn’t always forceful plunges, but consistent firm pressure.

✞ I will be more grateful for the garbage pickup this week than last week.

✞ We all have the stuff around our house that we live with everyday. But when company’s coming, we hide it away so nobody sees it. And when they all leave, we simply pull it right back out.

✞ On the other hand, we have a few things that mean so much to us that we put them away so they don’t get messed up or broken.

✞ Take pictures; remember the good times. But also be mindful of the not-so-good times and realize where God has brought you from.

✞ Leftovers are ok to eat on...for a little while.

✞ Always thank God before you eat. Thank Him for what He’s given you; ask Him to help you use what He has given you so that you can live better for Him.

✞ Do you “say” the blessing, or do you “ask” the blessing?

✞ I’ve read the end of the Book - my team wins.

I got a spiritual blessing with each one He showed me. You may get something different.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Right Where I Left It (Him)

I cleaned house today. For the first time in what felt like a really, really long time. It felt good. And, like so many times before, God used that time to talk to me.

For the past few (several?) months I have been pretty busy. Every week when Saturday morning cleaning time rolled around, I had other things to do. The messages from God on those days? “You’re too busy.” “You’re still busy?” “Guess you’re too busy for me today.”

And deep down I knew it. I knew it was not taking time to do some things that needed to be done. But I had legitimate, logical “excuses.” “It’ll be ok just this once.” “I’ll make up for it next week.” “Maybe somebody else will do it.” “Nobody else is doing it, why should I bother?”

And I kept telling myself “when I get passed such & such date,” “when I get this done,” or “I’ve got plenty of time.” Sound familiar?

But today I decided had to be the day to get back to “normal.” The problem? I couldn’t find my music. I have a certain cd that I play while I’m cleaning. It’s a good mix of oldies, dance, spiritual, and some stuff I’m not sure what to call it. This morning I could find every other cd but that one.

So, I found one I figured I could make do with. The first few songs were pretty good. Then there were some slow songs. Then the cd started skipping, then the skipping got worse, and a little over halfway through it just stopped all together.

By this time my brain was clearing (as were the cobwebs and dust around my house), so I went back to the last time I had the cd. It wasn’t in the dvd player (which is where I listen to it while I’m cleaning). I had left it in the actual cd player. So I go to the last place I thought I had the cd player - not there. Now I’m just mad at myself for not putting my own things back where they belong. Stop and breathe. “Now where in the world is my cd player?” And a voice whispers, “It’s right where you left it.”

Wow! That’s about the only way to describe it. Low and behold, in the back bedroom I found the cd player; and inside was my cd. All my stuff was right where I had left it. I was the one who didn’t go back to it; the one who didn’t take the time to make sure all was in order.

I put my cd in my dvd player, cranked up the volume, and proceeded to clean my toilets and sweep my floors. And all is back as it should be.